GEMMA Collins reveals she’s determined to have a baby this year after secret miscarriage heartache.
The star vowed to start a family in 2021 after telling The Sun readers in an open that she suffered her third miscarriage in lockdown.
The 39-year-old Towie star said on her BBC podcast: "How will I feel about 2021 this time next year? Well, I hope I’m married, I hope I have a baby this year – I feel that it’s going to happen for me," the self-proclaimed diva explained.
She added: "My main focus this year will be to really be comfortable being Gemma Collins, and definitely committing and giving quality time to a relationship and hopefully I’m going to have a baby."
Gemma previously admitted her miscarriage was "very sad", but added that it gave her hope she would have children one day.
Gemma opened up about her sad news on Loose Women saying losing a baby with "someone I loved very much was very heartbreaking".
She told the panel: "It's not easy to fall pregnant. I did suffer a miscarriage, which was really sad, during the lockdown period."
The star, who has polycystic ovary syndrome, said she didn't realise, thinking she was having a very heavy period that lasted for ten days.
She explained: "Three or for days in, I was realising it wasn't usual. It went on for ten days between 9am and midday.
"I was getting through ten super sanitary towels [a day].
"I rang my doctor and he said I he said: you need to go straight to the hospital."
The star added: "It was very sad. But it does make me realise that potentially there is hope there for me for the future."
Gemma split from long-term boyfriend James 'Arg' Argent last summer.
Polycystic ovary syndrome is a common condition that means your ovaries do not regularly release eggs and can make pregnancy difficult.
But Gemma said she still hopes to become a mum explaining she is still "holding on to that dream" that she will conceive naturally.
She said: "I pray every night that everything's going to work out for me. Having a miscarriage with someone you love very much was very heartbreaking."
The star last month spoke about another miscarriage that happened in 2012, saying she gave birth on her landing.
What is polycystic ovary syndrome?
Sufferers of polycystic overary syndrome, known as PCOS, can struggle to release an egg to be fertilised, often making it difficult to fall pregnant.
For many, the only hint of PCOS is irregular periods, while in more severe cases sufferers can be left with embarrassing hair growth on their faces, chest, back and backside.
Having polycystic ovaries also increases a woman's chance of developing type 2 diabetes, depression, high blood pressure and high cholesterol and sleep apnoea later in life.
Speaking on her podcast she said: "I actually gave birth to a child, sadly, and basically the child was four months old.
"Basically I had a miscarriage but obviously the baby was formed and it died in front of me.
"I had to go to the hospital and my mum was there. I can remember my mum being really upset, I was in shock, I was upset.
"That was really a shocking moment for me. But this is what I’m saying, I can talk about it now. Things sometimes are not meant to be."
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